prickling heat behind the eyes

if there is one thing she's scared of the most it would be her own thoughts. dark, self-drowning thoughts.if there is one thing she's tired of doing the most it would be trying to comfort herself.

sometimes she thinks she's toxic. sometimes she thinks she needs help. sometimes she thinks she needs a patch on her wounds but she barely ever lets anyone or any lending hands in. she's... just toxic. toxic to her own self.

she's tired of getting her heart broken. all she ever asks for is reciprocated feelings, is it too much to ask? she just wants to feel like she's worthy, for once, is it too much to ask? she just wants to feel loved and appreciated by the people that she loves and appreciates, is it too much to ask?