District 13

It hurts.
It really hurts.

It hurts so much to feel like you, all of you, have never loved me as much as I love you. Never appreciated me they way I've appreciated you. If I'm acting like a douchebag these days and that gets to your nerve, then do realize that's how you used to—and always do—treat me so I'm just trying to do the same, because I'm tired.

I'm tired of treating people the way I want them to treat me but all I got back is neglect. And being outcasted.

I'm tired.

I'm tired of crying, too.

I'm just so tired.

Thanks, anyway, for all the good memories.
























And to You, The Almighty, thanks so much. You threw me into a complete dark mood to have me kneel down at You. Thank you, Ya Allah.
And maybe, this is Your way of telling me to keep building my future. Maybe.

Ya Allah, please, I'm begging, make me grateful of being in Your hidayah alone. Being with You alone is enough. You alone is enough. 

Ameen.